But simultaneously I have looked upon my family with expanding eyes. I have sat and talked with my husband in the evening lamenting the complexity of adulthood but accepting that in this moment at 35 the complexity is never going away. It just is, it is life.
The quiet in this space may continue for a while. My priorities are shifting slightly though I'm sure I will return here with more regularity in the future.
What I am noticing is that as I project myself outwards towards my local community I have less energy to project towards the online one. But again, I am not worried or saddened by this. It is an experiment in a way. An expansion of my safety zone. It feels like a good time.