It all comes at once...the lesson of this year so far. The good, the bad, the ugly....there is not a separation. It is all jumbled together whether you like it or not.
In a few days we fly east, pause and then fly east again. The pause will bring celebration and mourning. Which doesn't seem to fit but again it must. And sometimes words just won't describe the bittersweet nature of this life.
The mystery of May is which word best describes the breakneck pace with which it advanced. Mayhem, madness and masochistic would suit I think. Phew. I'll take a breath now that it's almost over.
Much of the month was fun and celebration, and of course as life tends to present itself there was (and continues to be) much sadness and stress.
Our countdown to our England trip looms in the distance and as excited as I am I am still not in a position to plan too much or even make my top 5 list of places to visit. There is still a long list of things to do, finish, and prepare just in our day-to-day. I can't say I'm great at approaching life at this speed but regardless I either have to run or miss the train.
As all of this stuff of four lives lived together zooms around us the boys are growing as quickly as the spring plants. The reality of their changing selves strikes chords with me daily. How can the time move so fast? With each little baby I hold I see how un-little my boys are, while simultaneously shaking my head at how much there is to watch unfold inside them before they exit my daily influence.
Am I recording the sweetness of now? For their benefit but mostly for my own....I'm not sure how successful I am at that.
Today a girl I have know since she was born turns 13. And it literally feels like it was a blink in time. May's mystery...the stunning dash of our children as they grow. I'll take a breath again and sit with that for a while.
The countdown to our summer holiday is officially on. We leave in about 2 months for London England, and Jersey Channel Islands. To say I'm excited is a huge understatement and in my true fashion I'm doing some fun research on my own and with the boys. Luckily Kyan developed an interest in knights and castles recently, and Elliott's obsession with shields and swords is playing into our prep as well. Here are some books that we have checked out from the library to give us some background on our travels.
This is an interesting read so far, debunking the myths surrounding the ravens living at the Tower of London. I happened upon it while looking for books on ravens for a future art project.
Edward Rutherford has written many novels specific to cities. I have read Dublin: Foundation
(Also named The Princes of Ireland) and really enjoyed it. Historical fiction helps me to grasp a place much better than too much non-fiction. Much less dry.
Last weekend we visited a wonderful organization's open house. O.W.Lwhich stands for Orphaned Wildlife Rehabilitation Society rescues injured birds (mostly raptors) and houses ones that can not re-enter nature and releases ones that have healed.
A Barred Owl. We think an owl like this may be nesting near our home.
We have seen her/him 3 times now.
And the climax of the day was the release of this juvenile bald eagle. He was saved by a BC Hydro worker after being caught in a power line. It was very moving to hear his story and witness this bird's release back into the wild.
There are so many people that dedicate their time to worthy causes, this is just one of many. Supporting such brilliant work is a great way to send a family day outside.
Being one of the months that brings us the day and night in balance often makes March a positive time. As the month winds down I am reflecting on how the longer hours of light change our very nature. All of a sudden we are such busy bees and we try to pack more into our days. Or at least that is what I do. A to-do list that was ambitious in January is just not enough in March.
Dave and I are both stretching the possible for ourselves. How much can you accomplish today, this week, this month? Oh, sure I'll add one more thing, I'm sure I have time for that. And then the inevitable sinking feeling in your stomach happens and you start to get a bit nervous that you have bitten off more than you can chew. The list in your head or on paper or if you are fancy, on your cool app list thingy becomes rather daunting and you run the risk of avoiding it at all cost.
But the light in its in your face brightness gives you a tiny bit more energy. You dig deep, you cross off one thing at a time. You delegate (maybe). And slowly but surely it will get done. It will get done. Spring comes, snow (if you have any) melts, the wheel turns. Those equal hours are both a blessing and a curse. You balance it or you do not. But as surely as spring comes you go on.
On Monday the youngest member of our family turned 4. When one is the youngest I think it is often the case that you do lots of things for others. Waiting around for others, parties for others, activities based on the interests of others... so over the weekend we tried to do things that were just for the birthday boy. And here are a few of Elliott's favorite things:
Lego Anakin Skywalker birthday cake
Strawberry ice cream
Happy Birthday to a boy who knows what he likes. :)
Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West by Gregory Maguire I have not read the Wizard of Oz books but the sensation of the musical play lead me to read it. I am enjoying it and am a bit surprised because I would not say that it is for younger readers at all. Very interesting so far.